Thread:AngryLance/@comment-37028137-20200128044919/@comment-39280634-20200705155640

Alright. Here goes...

I noticed how a lot of people are cool with Alps. Not necessarily into them but al around cool with them. Even yourself. I noticed how everyone is okay and accepting of them on the profile page. But not me.

And I'm ashamed to admit that not only I'm not into them but... I kinda hate them. Why would I feel like this towards some innocent characters ? Because it's all so... uncanny to me. And unsettling. Because I find the concept of humans changing genders abhorent. Because we are not made up the way clown-fish or various species of amphibians. Because I feel humans... shouldn't be THIS maleable, at the genetic and chromozonial level. And because it is... terrifying to me. Changing one's body structure and all is all sorts of body-horror that I just can't seem to get over. I just can't.

You see, I've always considered Alps to be contradictory in the lore's rules: that only human women, monsters and some inanimate objects become Mamonos. But men ? Who were meant to solely be Incubi ? It just... doesn't make sense. They almost feel like a cruel joke, even. I don't know, maybe it's my upbringing who prompts me to think like this, or perhaps a personal phobia (which likely means I'm... kinda of a horrible person). It scares me because it feels like their brains are rewriten, unlike the rest of the monstarized humans, causing a TRUE loss of identity and sense of self. It's also ridiculous that gay or bisexual men can't stay men because... reason. It just doesn't make sense.

I'm really sorry if I suddenly sound like a big biggot but I could never understand that. I know that one time you gave a stern warning to someone who hated Alps so that started to make me feel all sorts of guilty for my beliefs. And that's why... I kinda wanted to confess. I also hoped for some technical understanding, seeing as you work in psychology and all. That's why I wanted to discuss this, hopefuly civil... before I say something really stupid somewhere else.

Thank you for hearing me out. And I'm sorry.