User blog comment:BTR180/Pugna Arenam/@comment-29038468-20200727193835/@comment-27550231-20200729014238

"Regrettably I have given up before and have resigned to a fate in which I must recede. But the vastness of my question and vastness of the subject is not that easy one to research in such a short time. As for the answer...  there are three..

1: I have sworn to never bend the knee. In my first defeat a villan of Dr. Ibrahim's creation brought me to my knees and told me to surrender, but I defiantly stood up and was frozen and took my first on screen death"

2: I also would have accepted kill a man (even though my character has done that)

3: Betray humanity. Despite my character's flaws he would rather see his life ruined than doom humanity to recession. That is why he has not quit the order. That is why despite their evil he would still support them if in need. That is why he crusades beside them and committed atrocities, to ensure his people would not fade into the night.