User blog comment:BTR180/X-Periment Z/Lilim/@comment-39280634-20200512124355/@comment-27550231-20200512170325

Ahhh yes... these were my early days. Man I kinda miss my old enthusiasm for writing. But yes, this was some extremely early writing that was mostly fueled by edge and the need to be different. A majority of people back then (and probably still are) mamono supremacists and believed that they could do nothing wrong. Me? Well I wanted to ruin their fun but slowly began to realize that there was no point to doing that and saw my fiery rhetoric ignored. So I became a fence sitter and provided neutral material slightly leaning towards the Order but still neutral and that brought me attention.

The French kiss was from a Hakutaku transfering her knowledge into him. I'm not sure if the lore supports that but it does for my story.

The memories are second or third hand memories. A good teacher gives you knowledge and let's you make up your mind wo in my mind the Hakutaku, despite the lilim's request gave him all the memories she had and received.

This story is more of a loss of innocence story as the once ignorant feral man returned to his old home civilized. He felt naked as he knew shame, he felt weak so he armed himself. He felt exposed so he built a house. He can no longer return to his old ways of living as he now knows what he is. The forest is no longer his home but he will try to make it once more. He will try to regain his innocence but deep down he knows that it's all but impossible.

As for X-Periment Z. He used to make WWYD and in the old days they were found in the comments section of mamono articles. So as to not drop a wall of text in the comments I would do this as the timeout for writing in a blog is way longer tha  in the comments.