Board Thread:Roleplay/@comment-28358106-20160920201819/@comment-28358106-20160923010504

She folds her arms and looks down. "The vision I had.  I told you that I had fought the regressed version of the Mistress?  I...I did more than that.  I had to fight her, yes.  But I fought her because, in the vision, she threatened you, and Sir Jorge, and the Master.  I chose to stay behind because I wanted you to persevere."

She begins to shake. "After you left, I continued to fight her.  I had no choice.  My life force was diminished, and I had to stop her.  She almost destroyed me, but I...I stopped her first.  I killed my Mistress."

The last few words make her voice crack, and tears run down her cheeks. "I was forced to kill her, to watch her die, and I had to watch as you and the others left.  There was no way for you to return.  As I watched what was once Lady Adelaide perish, my life force finally ran out.  I collapsed in the street, hardly able to move.  I believed then that I was never going to see anyone ever again.  I was dying."

She regains some of her composure. "When the vision ended, I found it was as if nothing had happened.  I tried to continue as normal, but I could not.  I discovered something about myself." She takes a deep breath.

"Upon returning, I found that I could turn without losing emotional control."

She looks deeply ashamed. "I have told no one.  Not Lady Adelaide, not the Master.  Nobody until now."

She looks up at you. "I have prevented myself from becoming close to anyone because I do not want to feel that loss ever again.  I no longer fear the loss of control.  I fear losing the people around me.  And when I think about giving you what was left of my life force, and what it meant to you, and watching you make your bargain with the Regent, and your willingness to lose everything you loved before me..."

She begins to shake again. She looks down. "I am not worthy of this.  I do not want to lose you..."