Thread:Doctor Ibrahim/@comment-29038468-20200411195655

So, basically I'm just depressed. A lot of things have been going on in my life recently. I've been swallowed up by anxiety and just a great loss of interest of things, I used to love playing video games and now I don't spend as much time playing them anymore.

To clarify in more detail, this had been an ongoing thing, but it wasn't as bad as it was now. It was more of that I just didn't want to. The slope downhill started this year when my mom's boyfriend of several years passed away suddenly. We were living with him and the property was in his name. The relationship between his daughter and my mom had always been tense, but it's gotten a lot worse since then. The property is now up in the air being withheld until the daughter turns 18. I'm going to be blunt, she's a spoiled brat who never answered to anyone, always played herself the victim and used whatever she could to paint herself in a better light (or others in a worse light.) and it works, I don't know how but it does. She's a petty thief and openly tried to steal from my distraught mother. She's undermined her authority at every point. With all this in mind, my anxiety and paranoia have been growing, and I feel like I've been thrown into a mire and it's getting harder to try and swim out. I just want everything to vanish and never wake up from my sleep. We're being removed from where we've been living for years because of a manipulative brat and her terrible family. WE PAID FOR EVERYTHING! THE REMOVAL OF HIS BODY FROM THE MORGUE, THE FUNERAL AND CREMATION! THE SERVICE/WAKE! EVERYFUCKINGTHING AND HAVE GOTTEN NOT SO MUCH AS A FUCKING THANK YOU! WE ONLY GOT 100 DOLLARS FROM TWO PEOPLE WHO TOOK PITY ON US! I HATE EVERY PIECE OF SHIT THAT WAS THERE! THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS TO ME OR MY MOM! THAT LITTLE BITCH CAME HERE WITH TWO OF HIS FRIENDS AND HAULED OUT EVERY LAST BIT OS SCRAP THEY COULD FOR CHUMP CHANGE! THAT'S WHEN SHE TRIED TO STEAL FROM MY MOM! I WANT TO SCREAM AND YELL AND HURT HER IN SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS THAT I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO COMPREHEND!

I just...hate everything and want to sleep and never wake up...I just don't want to deal with any of it. She has no right to harass my family after we've done so much...did I also mention that my dog passed away not that long ago and when that ungrateful waste of air didn't even so much as ask about my dog's absence. It's just so hard to keep going when there's no reason to...I need to get ready for work... 