User blog:BTR180/Tears of Denial

Letters from Whitemarch and the road
January 1st 109th Year of the Mamono Age

''                 Today is the day. The day we move to lescaite, well only for a few weeks. Well I decided to start a journal to log my days... I don't know what possesed me to do this but I'm doing this. Well... where do I start? This morning I guess.''

''                This morning Dasha came by with here cart and we started to pack up some of our belongings. Thomas, Regina and their kids came along to help us out. Hehe but it seems that they were actually trying to slow us down and keep us in Whitemarch a little longer. Aurum and I talked a bit about training and other such things, she's a good kid but I feel that putting some distance between us will be best. Let her put what I taught her sink in. Katrha was teaching Lucida the Chaos language in between cleaning. Nezon, Ferra, and Aegis mostly messed around. But it was alright, we really weren't in a hurry to leave. We finished around noon and were just about to leave when Thomas used his flair for the archane and  "summoned"  a great feast that they had prepared beforehand. And quite a feast it was. I have never seen  them all so happy before. They all laughed, played, and had a merry time. It's a shame this could not last longer.''

           After saying our tearful goodbyes we set off into the the evening sun and ride until we reached the outermost city and made our camp for the night.

January 2nd 109th Year of the Mamono age

''           Not much happend today. We rode out of Whitemarch and continued to ride, stopping occasionally to take a break and allow the horses to rest. Nezon tried to get closer to Dasha durring lunch. I think that she might be interested in becoming a merchant. I hope so, I don't really want her to become some mans maid and eventually be taken by him. Heh listen to me. Not wanting my own daughter to embrace her true nature and find someone to love. Ahhh, tis but the struggle of being a father.''

January 3rd 109th Year of the Mamono age

''          Kalafina spoke to me tonight. She wished to know of my current plans. It's not like she couldn't speak to me through my mind but she likes to make an apperance. We spoke in a secluded area and went over my plan to overthrow the Demon lord and replace her with someone else. She was not to fond with the idea at first but when she heard who I had in mind she quickly changed her mind.''

Jamuary 4th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''        Kalafina appeared again today. This time she blessed the horses once more allowing them to never tire. We spoke of my plans once more and she delivered news from the capital. ''

"A new high inquisitor has been appointed. A man by the name of Larion Toma. This is quite problimatic my champion. As you know he was quite the ferverous disciple of Raam Hakim."

"Yes I remember. He was quite skeptical of of my divine bringing and still doubts the legitimacy of my protection."

"Yes. And should you return he has mad it clear to bring the full extent of the Order upon you and burn coals upon your body. He claims that you have committed heresy, adultery, and many other crimes against the Order. If you wish to bring peace to these lands you will have to deal with him..."

''She dissapears before I can respond. "Like always... trying to keep me in suspense." I spend the rest of the night planning on how to deal worth Larion as I do not need sleep.''

January 5th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''Not much happens today. Nezon is starting to take a liking to Dasha and the two talk more about buisness 101 and how to be a savvy merchant. I just hope she doesn't take up her bad habbits.''

Letters from Lescaite
January 6th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''We arrived at the gates of Lescaite this morning. The girls have started to change slightly even before we arrived at the gates. Their eyes have taken what looks like a longing gaze. I only hope that the morals that we taught them hold up against their newly awakened urges. Every once in a while I'll catch them glancing at me with that longing gaze, I'll talk to Rhun about this. Maybe she can make sure that they don't try anything. We got past the gate fairly simply, the guards didn't even try to seach our cart after they saw everyone on the back. After all why would a man with that many "wives" try and cause any harm to their home? We arrived at the repurposed barracks half an hour later and introduced them all to Eri and layed down the ground rules of the home.''

1: Eri and Yona are part of the family and will be treated as such

2: I am not allowed to leave the house without an escort

''3: No one is allowed to enter my room without permission. Only Rhun, Eri and Yona are allowed to enter''

4: If asked I am not home

5: If asked my name is Kirk

6: No boys are allowed upstairs only in the kitchen, diningroom and livingroom

The following rules were discussed around the adults.

1: No one will lay a finger on my children in a tempting/sexual matter

2: No one will encourage the kids to fall into depravity

3: No one will encourage anyone to commit lustful actions with anyone in the household

4: No one will disclose the purpose of our visit here, to anyone.

January 7th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''                   It is just as I've feared. Nezon and Kathra have both fallen for me. All those years of morals, all the training Rhun has given them all for naught! They can't even look at me in the eye without turning away and blushing. This is not right, if I were to ask them to... I can't even finish this sentence without feeling sick. I've brought this up to Rhun, Eri and Aabi. If I'm going to stop this I can't do it alone.''

January 8th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''              Eri and I walked around the marketplace to help me get better aquainted with the new layout of lower Lescaite while buying groceries. The layout is mostly the same save for a new store, Tricormille. I remember that Aro once said that he had family that owned this chain of resteraunts... I also heard that Druella frequents this establishment quite often. We don't stay around here for long, if our prey discovers that she is being hunted then she might bail out and we'll miss out chance.''

January 9th 109th Year of the mamono age

''             I have sent Nezon with Dasha to the market in an attempt to keep her preoccupied. I gave Dasha specific instructions to try and dissuade any ideas involving me in a romantic sense. Thankfuly fo us Nezon's "feelings" have gradually decreased and shouldn't be a problem in a few days. Though Kathra on the other hand seems to have gotten worse, Rhun has tried to calm her down but at the rate this is going we may have to take more drastic measures.''

January 10th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''            Today we went on a family outing, we went on a tour of Lescaite castle. The tour was mostly informative and uneventful save for a few instances when we almost came into contact with the white bitch herself and where people were too touchy. Safe to say Aabi did her job and managed to fight off the mamono who were trying to get frisky. But all in all we got some good information on the layout of the castle and guards.''

''         Tonight is the night. After much discussion Rhun, Eri, Aabi and I have come to the conclusion that we must do something about the girls sudden infatuation with me. Yes they are not my biological children and such an action is not as taboo, but I still refuse to allow such thought or actions to persist. Our final solution to this was for the three to "claim me". The three shall spend the night in my quarters, in my bed, so their energy signature saturates over my clothes marking me as theirs. Hopefully this works out and manages to quell the girls lust.''

January 11th 109th Year of the mamono age.

''        Last night Rhun, Eri, and Aabi spent the night with me. They held on to me the entire night and as promised they did not try to undress me. Though I did feel a rather malleable hand reach down and hold onto me for quite some time, other than that nothing else. The next morning the girls were just as... promiscuous as they have become, but soon a dissapointed look comes across their faces and they mostly calm down. I keept my distance from them by sending them both off to help Dasha at her shop. She also managed to convince Aabi and Rhun to go along... She winked at Eri and I as she left, I think she's trying to get Eri and I closer.''

''We both go into the hall of armor and stand there in silence before I cup her face and transer my spirit energy into her. She collapsed onto the the ground after we were done... She was overwhelmed with pleasure and her skin, her horns. They have grown darker and larger respectively... She's evolving, I just hope that she can truly hold on to her humanity while we continue this.''

January 16th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''           The last couple of days were hectic. The Man hunters tried to abduct me... well they did abduct me and tried to sell me into slavery. Well that was their last resort, initially they tried to force themselvs upon me but due to my "condition" they called me broken and tried to sell me. That's where they made their last mistake. I was abducted while I was getting out of the shower and Rhun was only able to catch one of them, I'm guessing it's the new person they were freaking out about. I thought about breaking out on my own but that would only draw attention to me should the man hunters snitch, and they are dumb enough to do that. Well as soon as they set up the auction they were stung. Demon guards broke in and arrested all of the partons, it seems that even the sale of claimed men is illegal here of all places. Anyhow Dasha used her long list of market contacts to find me and Eri/Rhun both worked together to convince the guards to act. I'm going to lay low for a while, I don't want to be seen outside after this event.''

Letters of Videte
Febuary 5th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''           It's febuary and lust is in the air. The whole month is dedicated to love more than normally throught the year and as so I have not left our home often. Eri has tried to take me out on many "dates" much to the dismay of Rhun and Aabi. Their dislike of Eri's incessant pestering has actually caused Rhun of all people to openly speak against someone. There was a noticeable divide between them for days until they came to an agreement. Eri would not ask me to go on any dates unless Rhun or Aabi are allowed to go along. ''

''I was not given voice to this and have currently rejected many requests from them all, unless the area can be used for scouting. Or I feel like making them happy, after all I'm not that heartless.''

Febuary 10th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''           It's the week of love here in Lescaite. The streets are nearly empty and sound of pleasure can heard everywhere. Dasha convinced me to help her and Nezon with the store. The kids have callmed down significantly and have even apologized to me for their actions. I just hope that they manage to keep their minds until we go back to Whitmarch... Anyways the streets were mostly empty save for a few single manono and several lonely kikimoras and Shoggoth. Nezon joked that we should start a "love" service for all the lonely girls... Dasha second the idea and imediately started shilling me out for hugs. We made a pretty decent profit and had many repeat customers from the lonely maids... Nezon is grounded for the rest of the month and Dasha has no more help in the store.''

Febuary 14th 109th year of the Mamono  age

''            As the week of love has come to an end so too has the lust died down and daily life has returned to normal in Lescaite. I have been very quiet this month, the reason for this is my work here. While the streets were empty on the week of eros I took advantage of this and infiltrated Francisca's castle and  scouted. It was a shame that it was so easy to do so. The guards were all to busy enjoying themselves to notice anything happening around them. I was able to take several keys and maps and guard rotations from their stations. They were very vulnerable, were it not for my better judgement I may have acted that day and tried to put an end to the the lilim and her puppet. They were both in an orgy in their chambers, I could tell by the multiple tentacles that spread throught the castle and into their guards. I left after a few hours of scouting and hid out in the slums should I have been followed. I'll return home soon.''

Letters of Dedito
March 1st 109th Year of the Mamono age

''         It is safe to say that I am not being followed. I have stayed put in this alley for a few days now, if there was truly tracking magic on the items I stole from the castle then they should have followed me to this home. I stole away in a barrel inside the storehouse of someone's home. No one has come to search so I'll be making my move and return home at night.''

''I returned home in a cinch, I made sure that I wasn't being followed and was happily greeted by everyone. We had a great boar feast and went to bed early, their scent was fading away and I needed it to better blend in. They were also very happy to have me back that they keept telling me the same thing all night. They barely contained themsleves but managed to "calm" each other down. I hardly slept due to all the writhing they were doing.''

March 3rd 109th Year of the Mamono age.

''      The girls are both a little put off and happy this morning. They were doing everything they could to stay away from us yet did everything to keep us together. Oh, Rhun Eri and Aabi were clinging to me most of the day. Rhun and Aabi both do this better than Eri. I think they are feeding off my residual SE, I don't blame them. So much energy in a living battery constantly recharging from the DE in the enviroment. They are doing me a favor by syphoning it and staying close, I' m a target. A jucy meal that may bring the white one to our home. I took this opportunity to vent and let them absorb as much as they could making them stronger and heartier than before. Eri's feeding will have to be put off later''

March 4th 109th Year of the mamono age

''        Nezon and Kathra ran into Aro's children today. They both went to Tricomile or some store like that and had a prisoner fruit parfait. Several of them, and when they came back they were... more well figured. They have grown up in their time here they are no longer my little rain drops. They are grown women, growing women and I have to acknowledge that and let them grow. Let them love and live. They also became more flirty... Rhun is going to have to teach them another lesson on serving quietly and not giving into ther desires.''

March 6th 190th Year of the Mamono age

''    I should have slain them when I had the chance. While out shopping with Rhun we were caught up in a large crowd of people and tried to make our way through until we found out what was happening. Francisca was having a parade through the slums and with her was the white devil herself. I should have assasinated them when I had the chance. I should have put an end to the situation then and there. I had to be so pretentious, I had to delay my strike because I thought myself so high on the moral spectrum. I've committed many heinous crimes ended many lives just as they've started and now my selective morals have failed me. Just as I was forced to the front line she saw me. Druella had seen me and she smiled. She glanced at me for a second and smirked, she blew a kiss at me and her carriage moved on. I have to leave as soon as I get back. How could I have been so naive, how could I lower my guard.''

''As soon as we got home I had everyone pack up as quickly as possible and took Eri away to her room and closed the door behind us. Before she could say a word I brought her close and pourd as much of my spirit energy into as I could then layed her on her bed and whispered into her ear. "I've been sighted during a parade, I can't be seen with you. I'm sorry but I have to leave." Before she could protest I poured more energy into her leaving her incapacitated.''

''"Yona!" The small kobold skittered to the room and I hugged her. "I'm sorry but we have to go now, Please. Summon Dasha and have her meet us here. I'm sorry." We left at sundown and rode well into the morning. I wish I could have had a proper good by. I wish it didn't feel like I abandoned them. I wish that my visit didn't bring them anguish.''

March 7th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''I'm going back to Lescaite. I'm going to sneak in and make sure that Eri and Yona are alright. Iv'e abandoned them in the dragon's den and must go back. I will not let them fall into her gaping maw. I will not fail them! I'm going back after lunch and sneak in under the cover of darkness. They are making camp and will wait for mid day tomorrow. I hope that they're alright.''

Letters of Aditum
March 7th 109th Year of the Mamono age.

2000: ''I managed to make it back to the walls of Lescaite on my own. So far I have gone unnoticed, I'm going to scale the walls and make my way back to Eri. But first I'm going to have to create a distraction to draw away any possible guards in the area.'

''2015: I've managed to climb the wall. There was one guard patroling but she wasn't to hard to take out. If I remember correctly there are several stashes of explosives hidden near the guard posts in case of large masses. That just might cover the missing guard and will provide a lofty distraction.''

''2045: There was a large explosion in a guard tower tonight. It appears that the guards smoking seems to have set off a long forgotten stash of explosives. Quite unfortunate, they'll have to scour the walls to ensure that another guard doesn't set off another explosion.''

''2100: I've made it to Eri's home and scoured the surrounding area. No known observers are to be seen. I'm going in.''

''2103 I found Eri and Yona in their room, she was crying. The house was clear as no nother life or energy signs were detected.''

''2117: I didn't have much time to say my goodbyes but I did none the less. Eri was fine and unharmed. She was overjoyed that I came back. I couldn't stay for long but I gave her a letter with my home. I know it's a dangerous move bt I must do it, for her.''

''2136: I had to make it look like I bursted through her home. It hurt to destrory parts of her home but I felt a dark presence floy over and an influx of guards were scouring the streets.''

''2153: I've managed to sneak past the large armies roaming the streets, though I had to dispatch a few of them who would make escape impossible. I'll make my way to the wall at a diffrerent location and make my escape.''

''23250: The walls of Lescaite burn and stand crumbling, something that I would never do. Just as I was escaping I caught a glimpse of her, Druella. She was not quite content and fired upon me. Her DE beams are quite slow and predictable so I lept from the walls to escape them. I knew that I wouldn't fall to my death and I soon found myself in a blinding light, but just before I vanished I flipped her off with both hands. Boy did she look pissed, she tried to cone after me but everything went white.''

March 8th 109th Year of the Mamono age

''          I awoke in a field of bright green grass in a land I have never seen before. The sky was unnaturally bright and everything had an unnatural sheen to it. That's when I noticed that my head was resting on Kalafina's lap. I thought I had died, for good this time. But before I could ask she spoke.''

"Enjoy your stay in your promised land for it shall be short. We could not allow you to fall into their hands and thus plucked you from reality. We will drop you near your allies soon, but I would rather give you a taste of paradise for your actions against her armies. You put quite a dent in her numbers and thus deserve this reward."

Before I could say a thing I felt a falling sensation and soon find myself falling from a tree and next to the campfire Rhun was setting up.

''1027: We left on our way back to Whitemarch. Hopefully we don't get followed back home.''

''2100: We set up camp for the night. The girls seem to be relaxing a bit due to the significant lack of DE in the air.''

Letters of Recessus
March 9th 109th Year of the Mamono

''The girls seem to be in withdrawl, our exit was to fast and they have become highly dependent on the large amounts of DE in the air. Dasha and Aabi are going to take turns driving today while Rhun and I take care of our kids. I have to let them absorb my ambient SE to help them cope... I just hope they don't become too dependent on me now.''

March 10th 109th Year of the Mamono

''The girls seem to be doing better today, through all our efforts they got enough DE and SE to manage. Though they are still pretty weak. Heh... I can't help it, every time I held them in my arms. It keept reminding me of when Nezon was first born, she was so tiny. Maybe when this is all over... When everything is over...Just maybe I'll try again.''

March 11 109th Year of the Mamono

''It's been a few days of travel and the path doesn't seem right. It's familiar but it doesn't seem right. Dasha and Aabi both say that we're on the right path but whenever I try to drive they flat out refuse. They're up to something I know it, but what. Ahh whatever... It's not like I'm in a hurry to return home. Plus I haven't spent this much time with Rhun and the girls, just quality time. I don't want this to end, I almost wish they were both little puddles of love. I wish that Kathra had a chance to grow up and not just be born her age.''

March 12th 109th Year of the Mamono

''We arrived in Rothfeld today... I knew Dasha was planning something but I didn't expect her to take us to her hometown. She took us all to the merchant guild and I finally paid them their uncut emerald. Her dad on the other hand wasn't quite fond of me coming here with my family. Well he was more peeved at the fact that I didn't say that I had a family before he married us. But in my defense they didn't give me the chance to explain, hell it happened in an instant! Anyways he didn't stay mad at me for long but we can't stay in the guild since we aren't really married anymore. Dasha tried to convince him to let us stay but rules were rules so we had to rent a room. Rhun, Aabi and the girls slept on the bed while I waited for day.''

March 13 109th Year of the Mamono

''Dasha gave us all a tour of Rothfeld today, Dila and Tayla followed us for the later half of the trip, much to my dismay, they were just as loud and scheming as I remember. Nezon seemed to like them, she was soaking up every word they said, I really think that she might have a real intrest in buisness. Never knew that such a thing could happen... She might fall for some smooth talking merchant who will take her away from us. She's going to live in the back of some wagon, not even a real home and they're just going to go from town to town selling trash and bumping uglies in the wagon like animals! ''

''Now that I read that last part I realise that I'm a pretty angry dad... They may never get married if I keep scaring away potential suitors.''

March 14th 109th Year of the Mamono

''I have run out of things to do here. After our tour yesterday there was not much left to do. I might have to get a job as well! The hotel room cost quite a bit amd since my sham marriage with Dasha is now void we can't stay in the guild housing. I wonder if Dasha still haa copies of that treasure map...''

March 15th 109th Year of the Mamono

''I BOUGHT the map from Dasha. She seems to be very stingy that she wouldn't let me borrow it instead, well it doesn't matter. I'm going to get that treasure and ensure that my family has a place to live while we stay here. I will make my leave tonight but first I'll have to give Rhun money to pay for the room. Dila and Tayla came over and brought diner for us. Perhaps I'll stay a while longer.''

March 15th 109th Year of the Mamono

''0001: Dila brought a ham from the guild while Tayla brought macaroni and assorted veggies. They stayed in our rooms for some time but soon had to leave. I don't plan on being gone for long.''

''0400: I made it into the cavern where the treasure was supposed to be but I only found several lamia skeletons. I guess Bromwell or whatever his name was really did skin them. I continued down the cave to see what else I would find.''

''0600: There was nothing else save for a sex dungeon, no loot, nothing salvageable, or appealing. I'm going to look around some more to make sure.''

0700 I'm going back to town to have a word with Dasha.

''1200 I've had a good word with Dasha, Dila helped out conciderably. I don't know why she's gotten so friendly all of a sudden but it's gotten quite helpful. She mentioned that leaving us to live in a hotel when we're supposed to be visiting was absurd.''

March 16th 109th Year of the Mamono

We moved back into the Merchant's Guild housing today. Dila apparently went to her father and convinced him to let us into their home. I'm getting suspicious of her intentions... but I she is keeping my family housed so I'll turn a blind eye to this. We had dinner with her family. Her dad was quite akward and Dila was extremely talkative... Even Tayla was relatively quiet by their standards.

March 17th 109th Year of the Mamono

I'm glad that I don't have to hire myself out as a mercenary, but we are still running low on funds for our vacation. I don't really want to leave but at the same time there is little work and begging is out of the question. We may have to leave in a few days but still, we plan on enjoying it.

March 18th 109th Year of the Mamono

We had to leave today. Dila tried to sneak into my bed last night and her dad found out... I could have explained the whole situation to her father... But he wouldn't listen and well, I didn't want to find out if he would follow his threats. I'm goign to drive the horses as long as I can so we can get home faster.

March 19th 109th Year of the Mamono

I forgot that the horses were blessed and wouldn't tire... It was kinda hard to explain why we rode through the night to everyone but thankfully they dropped the subject. Exccept for Aabi. She never shut up about it and we ended up debating polotics and science. I don't know how we got talking about all the overpowered rulers of the lands but hey I got to hid the blessing  for now.

March 21st 109th Year of the Mamono

After a few months we finally made it home. After all that's happened we probably need a vacation from our vacation! HA! Anyways Iv'e grown quite tired of journaling my life. I thought that it might be fun, I thought that it would be a good way to pass the time. Boy was I wrong... Anyways I have to help unpack so this journal ends here for now.