Board Thread:What Would You Do?/@comment-34163681-20180214022258/@comment-34263048-20180214094430

While I was kind, and relatively selfless guy, years of being abused both mentally and physicly had left me scarred for life. I was bullied from preschool to college, and as I was constatnly finding myself in situations where I had to defend myself, at some point those that I concidered my friends were just trying to get something out of me to use againt me. And in teachers eyes, I was the troublemaker who was instigating the fights all the time. Eventually when I had my school finished I moved to another city to get a fresh start, I got a job, and apartment. The apartment was bit too large for my needs and as one of my co-workers was losing his home, I decided to be helpful and rent one of my rooms for him. How ever he got fired soon after that, and I gave him the benefit of the doubt. He couldnt pay for me now, but I was too kind to throw him out. Half a year later police raided my home, after he had crashed my car in a high speed chase, and then I learned that he was growing pot in his room. and dealing with "harder stuff" from my apartment. Thankfully I managed to prove my innocence in court. Soon after that case ended, I met a girl that I liked, and she seemed to like me, we had rather good times together, until her boyfriend beat me up. bit later we found out that 1 wasnt enough for her, she wanted to have at least 3 of them.

Anyway, all of that hasn't really changed me. Only thing that has changed is that I'm now a loner. Deep inside I still want love, compassion, and comfort of a good wife, but I really dont trust in anyone. life has shown me that that everyone is only trying to benefit from me. Since I got released from the hospital after I got beaten up, I had decided that I will stay as who I am, but dont let anyone close to me. Every time I have trusted someone, they have abused my trust, that isn't going to happen anymore.

Soon after that, my parents died in a car accident. As I inherited what they had, I sold pretty much everything hey had, and moved to another side of the nation for second completely fresh start. I was able to buy a decent house, and open a small coffeeshop, and while the business wasnt great, I got bunch of regulars. Also I saw lots of mamono in this city, and they were living peacefully with humans. Many species I was unfamiliar with. but then again so far I had lived in area where the extrimist group known as Order had a rather stong hold. And most mamono were either living "wild", or in very poor conditions in the slums. I've never had too much contact with them. But living so long among those order extremists, well my prejudice was rather high towards them. Even thuogh most of the claims were proven wrong, they were still rather foward, and for some reason my little coffeeshop seemed to be quite popular among them. Anyway, I wasnt going to let anyone close to me anymore. I had "built a wall" around me, just to protect myself from the world. ________________________________________

A broken man? Am I really "broken"? maybe? possibly? She might be right, afterall... Hey, hold on a minute, Who the hell is she, and how she is in my home?? I had been just looking at the floor, for who knows how long. I look back to her, she's just lazing on my bed, Or sitting could be more proper term, watching me, and smiling softly. Her white hair which is giving slightly purple hue brushed on both sides of her head reaches just below her shoulers, and almost covers some of her eyes on her forehead. Her slim and pale skin contrasting with her black and rather large abdomen which was shidning in the light, also having slightly purpleish hue. Only thing that didnt really fit on her was her dress, which was pink. While her human part was relatively small and attractive, if she would be human I'd say she would be about 5'6-5'7 foot tall, but the large abdomen, I could almost fit inside it, and while standing she would be nearly 7 foot tall. and just as much intimidating as attractive. Thick strand which covered her chest, a small skirt like thingy covering her nether regions, and top part of the front legs which were so short that they wouldnt reach the ground if she would be standing up, and spider web figure which had rather large heart, with spider legs in the middle, while sides and back were almost completely open, just couple strands going under her arms, and lower back keeping the dress on her.

-"Who..." That's how far I get before she talks again. -"Someone who cares. I have seen how you have looked at couples, I have also seen how you look at every other woman. like you would be dreaming of having a companion of your own. yet every time anyone makes a move towards you, you reject her in a heartbeat." -"How..." I was about to ask  how she got in my house but yet again she interrupted me. -"I have had my eye on you for a while now, I see that you have had some troubles in the past." She turns her face downwards, but I can still see that warm, but almost sad smile she has. -"I dont know exactly what is going on with you, but to me it looks like you want something, but are too afraid to get what you want."

Afraid? Am I afraid? then it hit's me, I AM afraid, I'm afraid of being used, I'm afraid to let anyone close, I'm afraid to show my own emotions, and currently more than anything I'm afraid of her. Not because what she is, it's because she sees right trough me. How ever I'm not going to let anyone use, or abuse me anymore. She has allready proven that she can get in to my house, and she know's me better than even I do. and I could almost swear that this is the first time I have met her. But to protect myself, I have to sell everything, and start again in another city. I snap out of it when I see her legs right in front of me. Yet again I was just staring at the floor, my eyes had teared up. Meanwhile she had moved right next to me, just inches away, and as I look up to her, she's stading there arms wide open. -"I'm here just for you, if you just have me..." Her voice lowers, it's barely just a whisper -"Please have me."

In the moment of my weakness, Afterall I havn't even hugged anyone in 7 years, and her standing co close to me, so frightening, but at the same there is so much promicing, and so comforting precense right next to me. I push myself close to her and embrace her like drownig would try to emrace a floating straw of hay. I feel how she bends over me, and her front legs wrap around my legs, and her hands wrap around my shoulders. and we emrace eachothers for quite long time. Some point I realice that I'm now crying, I almost had forgotten how to do that. She really got under my skin, compltely shattered the wall I had built around me. I honestly have to sell everything and move out of here fast, she's way too dangerous for me, I most likely end up getting hurt harder than ever, but for now I might as well play along.

I feel how she slightly shifts her position, and then I notice how she is lifting me up, and soon she lands me on my bed, and starts to undo my clothes. Soon I find myself strapped in to the bed, but at the same time feeling pleasures which I had never felt before, and even thuogh I had my doubts, I have to admit that she trougoutly enthralled me.

Couple days later, I'm getting ready to sell my house, a potential buyer just left, and I'm just getting in when I hear her voice. -"Please don't leave me." As I turn around I see her standing below the staires. I hoped that I would get out of here before I see her again. -"Please, Dont brake me. Let me help you to gather yourself, but please, dont leave and brake me." She's crying, and almost begging.

That's when it dawned on me. I was about to cause her the pain I had felt before so many times. Just use her, and then leave her. She was willing to work to get me whole again, and I was about to brake her. It took me quite a while to come up with an answer to her. -"No I won't leave, and I won't brake you. I just decided to buy another house which is worthy enough for us."