User blog:GoldenDiva/Putridis Peccata

A mumbling comes from the depths of the cave.Despite being surronded by the jagged whirlwinds of the lands,it can still heard by those who forget the crying storms to focus on this reminescence of regrets:

"They told us they couldn't be reasoned with...

They told us we could not merely push them back...

''Those bearing the cross told us they are ceaseless... ''

...relentless...

Ending them was our only solution on the first days,they said...

And so,when I saw them for the first time,they were attacking a village dragging men away...

I taught they were going to devour them,torture them,slaughter them...

...like they told me...

So,I attacked them and murdered them...one...at...a...time...

They cheered me on,telling me I was doing the right thing...

I was happy about this...

But,after months of continuous battles,I began to see changes in myself...

And I began to hear him...

HE was a whisper at first...

HE became more present...

HE showed me how I loved hunting them...how I love cornering them...how I love ending them...

I kept going,killing more of them,without questionning them...

Some of them seemed like the tried to talk to me...

Others looked like they begged for mercy...

It didn't matter to me, I saw them all as monsters,why would them not stop attacking us...

HE pressed me to keep thinning their numbers,promising me safety for the innocents...

HE began assisting me more directly,making his presence known on my arm,coloring it black with new powerful spells...

But,after I was ordered to destroy a village held by black-skinned monsters and captured men,I started to wonder...

...why not save them?

Regardless,I targeted every one of them as them picked arms to defend themselves...

Only,them weren't merely attacking me like the monsters I was preseumed them were...

Behind them,stood frightened men,who took refuge on the back of the amazonesses...

Weren't they supposed to kill and torture us,why would they keep them in health...

''Why were the men scared of me? I cam here to save them from monsters...''

One by one,they fell at my gilded bladed circles I held in each hand...

Some of them told the men to run away to another village,from the beast that had came to destroy...

It dosen't make sense,they're the beasts and yet they dared calling me one of them...

At the end of the day,one stood,with more markings than the others and purple rags..

She was the leader and she had to die.

But before I could throw my circle,she she questionned me...

Asked why was I tearing asunder their homes...

Asked why was I manifesting such hatred to their kind...

''Asked why was I killing her kin with worse brutality than the old ones... ''

I told her they raided our towns and slaughtered our own...

She asked me if I really ANY of them committing the same acts I was doing...

She asked me to look onto all the places I destroyed...

I ignored her pleads and was to strike her...

Then a little one,her daughter ran to her mother despite her orders to go back...

Then,a man also joined in,both of them blocking my path to the leader...

With tears in their eyes,they pleaded me to stop...

That's when I first doubted about their teachings,and wondered if I was foolish to forsake my kin's...

I went back to a town that was to say,overran by monsters...

Seeing the destruction,most of them lamenting the serious injuries of men they held close...

I knew then,by the sincere torment they suffered by my hand,that everything they taught me were LIES...

HE woke up and pressured me to kill the monsters here...

I couldn't act with violence against them anymore,yet HE made himself more controlling...

My rage,my hatred...my sins,were turning against me,as this....demon tried to possessed me...

My last dellusions got shattered when the crying wives took notice at my presence...

The fears was broad in their faces and each of them took their families and fleed...

And a silver haired one walked a few steps to my direction and stopped...

-'You call us monsters that massacre your kind,beasts that should be stopped and yet you never bothered to see what we were actually doing.Those men you thought were slaves to us were our dears that wanted to live with us,in peace.And then,you threw your hatred at us for being different?Your hatred with be the end of you.Now,leave at once,lest I take the actions to throw you out.

Angered by her words,HE possessed me...

My corrupted avatar managed to overpower her,slowy but surely...

I was going to end her,then it happened again...

Her daughter and her husband,both rushed to her...

The little one was crying for her mother to get up...

He was standing between up with his weapon drawn and pointed at me...

I couldn't take what I had done anymore,so I ran far away...

HE wanted me to go back,but I took all my corruption and branded it all on my left arm with the remnants of my corrupted powers,and made him asleep...

Now,I walk among them,trying to undo all which I had wrought upon them,as penance...

But,something bad is happening...

HE is wak I AM ing up...

HE is reg I AM REGAINING aining strenght...possession...

I can't contain HIM for long...

My sins...

...there're turning me back...