Board Thread:Questions and Answers/@comment-30160565-20180704041440/@comment-31192300-20180704053225

Initially you will distance yourself from the matter. Yeah, you said some harsh things to her, but it was no reason to respond like this, she overreacted. You just wanted her to leave you alone.

Next, you will begin to notice just how woven into your life she had become. As you go through your day your chest will brace for a surprise hug that it will never feel, your ears will prepare for a carefree laugh that they will never hear, and your eyes will prime for a fruity love letter that they will never read. As more days pass the pain will sharpen as your mind whether you want it to or not acknowledges just how much she meant to you, quirks and all. You will yearn to feel one more hug, you will plead to hear one more laugh, and you will beg to read one more of her silly notes.

Finally, you will find yourself at the end of your rope and just as you are about to put the gun in your mouth and pull the trigger you think about her and how hurt she would be to see you like this. Then you think about all of the other people that you have stopped appreciating; The parents you stopped calling, the friends you stopped visiting. You will realize for the first time in a while just how important everyone in your life is to you and upon this realization a warmth you thought you would never feel again begins spreading through you. As you put the gun away you vow to never again take another person for granted and you pray that wherever she is that she would see just how much you have changed.