User blog:Kalroizer/Lost diary of Kalroizer

In this very day i was packing up to leave my house and afterall my parents never liked me anyway, father always had very grusome look on me and mother... she just didn't like me. I indeed was born a girl but grew up into manhood or genderless? my little plays had always bothered my parents as i always was in a interesting of experimenting with everything, my body was no exception to my experimenting and what my parents most hated about me i also dislike about myself. I am a girl who enjoys to experiment with things and at few times but too often i sneak up to my family to experiment with them, the last ones i did was surpringly good as i expected my father to die. As i gone outside i would have expected my family to atleast wave as a last eye of them but they did this rude thing by shutting the door as soon as i was outside, a family was never my help either way but i couldn't stop to think that they wanted to get rid of me and that bothered me. My plan was to go to a castle which i brought for only a few gold pieces and i caouldn't believe how lucky i was until i saw i wasn't lucky at all. A i approached the castle it seemed more to be a giant ruin and how often do you think one lives withing a ruin, i grabbed onto a ledge and the very instant it fell off and i was sure at that moment that this was going to be much more expensive than i had hoped for. I gone to an room and settled in there, i put all my stuff i had and made that my personal workshop but as i expected not all but alot of my completed stuff was destroyed, as such i had to redo my stuff so that was my first goal. I set a table up and different potions and such, i took a red potion and a green potion and combined them to a yellow potion, i then took another green potion and made it light green, i was curious of the results so i chose to drink it. A dashing feeling gone through my chest and everything felt like it was twisting up, my chest had a feeling as if it was slowly pulling itself in and my entire body was going through a different proces. There was no pain nor pleasure, it was a feeling as if relief and stretching as if i was gently pulled around, afterwards i fell onto my knees and i was fast to get a mirror. I had somehow taken the appearence of a young male which was most certainly wierd but what i found wierder was that i was indeed feeling as if i was still female and i felt it aswell. The heavy lift of my breasts where still there but not able to be seen nor felt, i still had a opening and no rod betweem my legs so i was most certainly still female down there. I directly pulled my bag out to record the recipe but i could not find my notebook, it then struck me i had forgotten it at home and at that moment i further knew that i had to restart everything in total. I was male now and that kinda sucked so i left outside to get a few matirial, directly a monster girl was outside and she seemed to be looking straight at me. It was just a holstaur but that was enough to give me a shock which made me almost jump out of surprisement, she just stared at me for a couple of seconds and then turned her back on me to leave. I was frustered, i was male now and she was suposed to go over me so i got red out of pure anger and shouted at her.

"Hey, you was suposed to rape me just then!"

i directly covered my mouth as i realised the grusome mistake i did and as she turned and looked straight at me the moment i said that she talked with gentle words to me.

"Why? you're not a male"

It appears she was able to know i wasn't a man at all, after that she left. this made me think that perhaps it was some sort of scent only males had, then i remembered a book covering this. It was indeed beause of my spirit energy still noticing me as a female i did not have all that spirit energy go out of me and i also still had the scent of a female, a Holstaur would for once never go and attack on a female but why was she here? I shook my head abit to get my thoughts in place, i bend down to re-pick some flowers outside which was needed for the cure and as that happen'd before i gone inside i heard someone calling, it was a lovely lady with a pure white dress. I decided to go towards her and as i did so i smiled abit towards her as gentle as i could, i had never been in the middle of a experiment whilest such so i had no idea what to say but i was indeed more than happy to see such a lovely person here. I only knew so much to say.

"Hello lady"

The lady had a gentle smile i could not bear to hold on, i as such also envyed her body abit. She replied with a oh so gentle voice.

"I merely wanted to know if you lived here and if it was ok that i could pick some flowers"

I nodded my head as that was alright, such an warm female should not have been here and as such i would have guided her away but i did not need to do that because after my short answer she left me directly. I directly went back in and drank a potion to convert back into female, slowly falling down against the wall i began thinking "have i really just gotten a new friend?" and that question would not leave my head at anytime. I aswell knew that my new potion discorvery was dangerous if not risky, playing god never had ended well for me i kept thinking. Eventually i thought to myself that it wasn't a big deal at all though it kept taking on my brain, it gave me massive headache to think like this not knowing what to do at this moment. Perhaps i was wrong. it is a very big deal?

W.I.P.