User blog comment:Hakaishin Aro/The Inari temple/@comment-39280634-20191010062929/@comment-39280634-20191020093046

Lance glances at the room interior as he takes a seat: "Wow, nice room. First, i have to say sir, you have a woderful place here. They told me it was beatiful but i never imagined it was this sublime. You really do feel at peace here. Oh, sorry, i digressed, i came here for something important. The thing is... well, i come from afar. A different real, in fact; i guess it's nothing surprising for someone like you. I went through... some grueling times, got hit a lot of tragedies and... ended up in this realm through a fluke. Long story short: i met her. A Holstaur by the name of Meri Bell. A farm girl, a wonderful person: cheerful, caring, loving... She helped me through my times of need, nursed me back to health, looked after me through thin and thick and even risked her life for me. I... love her. I love her with all my heart. And... i'm afraid. I'm afraid to put her in danger because... i'm tainted. You see, i'm not fully... human. Through some a horrible process i became fused with a... creature from another a completely different dimension. On of horror. Horror that spilled into my homeworld. And i became a guy who... can turn into an abomination at will, to put it bluntly. On top of having an evil bloodline; all the men in my family tree are... not the best of people. My father was a abusive bastard and my grandfather... was the one who turned me into a 'monster', and dabbled into evil teachings. He wanted to indoctrinate me into it but i tried to fight against it. Almost failed, barely survived it. And because of that... i'm afraid i might hurt Meri, just by being with her. I fear that i might taint her as well, or worse... i might even curse our future children. I went to many doctors, witch-doctors, mages, clerics, i even visited Druella herself: none could find anything 'evil' or 'ill' in me. Well, there was also the Sabbath but hell if i would ever visit those creepy 'big-boy diddlers'. Ahem, anyway, what i wanted to know was... if it is indeed safe for Meri to be together with me. I beg you... i have to know."