User blog:Ore-samma/My Titania (Youth) (Innocence Lost / Regained)

Hello Fans, Ore-samma here!

A special one-shot from a special fan request!

I love the idea of losing and regaining innocence.

As we grow up, we lose a part of ourselves. At least I think so. What we were, is not who we become. And often, who we become is not exactly a result that is desirable. Our motivations and wants become corrupted from the world at large, and I wanted to capture this in this one-shot

I hope you like it!

Ever your Servant-

Ore-samma

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I lay in my bed, looking up at the darkened ceiling.

I didn’t know how to feel, I didn’t know what to think.

I just wished the entire world would end.

I fingered the ring in my hand, the smooth band and the rough diamond served as nothing more but to remind me of the betrayal.

She betrayed me. How could she? After she told me she loved me?

I put the ring back in its box with the receipt and scoffed. At least I would get some of my money back.

I spent the rest of the night looking at my darker fantasies, faces, shapes, lewd body parts, all in the name so that I could forget.

I just wanted to forget….I just wanted…

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“Alex!”

I gasped and startled to sit up.

“Who- what? Who are you?” I cried out, seeing a strange woman, flanked by several smaller women...all with wings….all with this strange smile to their faces.`

The smaller women all tittered and flew around the larger woman, their passing and wings made sounds like delicate metals tinkling and sparkling off of each other.

'' Ohdear! Ohdear-ohdear-ohdear-ohdear! Hee-hee-hee! ''

'' Neechan! He forgot again! Hey! Neechan! ''

'' Neechan-Neechan-Neechan! ''

'' Let me tell him! Let meee! ''

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The larger woman shushed them all and looked to me, still smiling.

“Alex, it’s me, Aphrodite! Your Neechan!” She said and gave a small kiss to my cheek.

In a flurry of movement and a small gust of wind, all the small women rushed to my face and also kissed my cheek….and I remembered…..

My Neechan! I always thought she was a dream! I always forgot her after I left!

I remembered!

It all started when I was six!

I remember…..it was some purple smoke or mist! The day of my birthday!

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She sat me in her lap, and we had a tea party and she showed me how to play a few games that none of the other children knew…. A strange variation of tic-tac-toe, checkers, and ‘guess who’

We spent a full week together, playing under the sun, having cakes and tea, and sleeping in her arms under the stars.

But then I heard my parents shout that it was getting dark. She begged me to stay, told me she never wanted me to grow up, so she could always be my Neechan….but…..my mother and father called….I asked her to come with me, but she was gone when I turned around…..

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And again, when I was twelve!

She cried and cried when I returned! She wanted to play the same games as before with me, but I didn’t want to.

All I wanted to do was play my Xbox, but she didn’t have one.

She tried to entertain me by telling me stories, but they were boring.

All the while she cried, begging me to understand she was trying her best- that this was the reason why she begged me to never leave her! And then, she also begged me to stay. Begged to be with her forever.

But I missed the internet, and my games. I told her that I would be back. She broke down and cried, but said she would never hold me against my will.

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And now?

“Neechan? Wh-wha-what happened to you?” I sputtered, as she now looked the the embodiment of fetishes of the more depraved and lewd sort.

“Don’t you like this Alex?” She cooed. “Didn’t you know that you and I are connected and that I know your thoughts and can see your dreams and fantasies?” She leaned in and kissed my lips, her tongue dancing upon them, teasing them apart.

I flinched as the other small fairies, Neechan’s little sisters started to tug and pull at my clothes.

I felt my mind grow hazy and disjointed as my body responded apart from my mind and better senses.

It was like she was fulfilling a chaotic amalgamation of all the fetishes and fantasies I had since I hit puberty.

My body responded to it, craved it, and wanted more!

But-

But there was something wrong about it all! No! This cannot be my Neechan! How could it be? She was good! She was pure! How could this-

I gasped as my climax crested throughout my body and down Aphrodite’s throat. She smiled and took a long drink from a cup one of the smaller fairies offered her and rested her head against my chest.

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“Alex, that was so wonderful!” She purred, her fingers delicately tracing the lines of my chest and stomach. “Alex, would you please stay with me forever this time?”

I felt the haze of my passions sweep away, leaving only my disappointed horror.

“No!” I cried out sitting up so rapidly that it startled Aphrodite and she slipped off me and looked at me with a devastated expression.

“No? Why not?” She said, still upon the ground and looking upon me as tears poured from her eyes.

“What happened to you?” I cried, feeling my own tears fall upon my face. “You- you- you weren’t like this! You were so pure and alive! You were so full of light and purity! You…..” I shook my head, seeing an afterimage and imprint of the Neechan Aphrodite I once knew. “You weren’t this pervert that’s before me now!” I ended with a crying despairing sob.

A flash of lightning split reality and the resounding thunderclap made my ears ring.

Aphrodite slowly rose to her feet, a strange red and black energy swirled around her and her face was stern and full of this righteousness I could almost not bear to look at.

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“I could say the same about you, Alex!” She said in a soft, yet flat monotone. “First you came to me as an innocent child! You were pure and alive! You were full of light and purity, laughter, and joy! I gave you everything you could have wanted...was everything you could have wanted, and I begged you to stay with me so I could love you forever.”

She waved her hand and I saw ghostly images of me and my Neechan cuddled under the very tree we were near.

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'' I love you, Neechan! I will always love you. Do you know that? ''

''Alex, I love you too! Oh! Please stay with me? I want us to be together forever! I can be anything for you, do anything for you! All you have to do is stay with me! Please? I beg you!''

'' But Neechan! I have to go home! Mom and Dad say I have to go home at night! ''

'' But- AlexI Please! I love you so much! I don’t want you to leave! We could never see each other again! Please! I beg you! Stay with me! ''

'' Don’t worry Neechan! I will come back! I love you! ''

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Aphrodite waved her hand and the illusion disappeared and she stepped closer just as a pouring rain and howling wind started, flinging the smaller fairies away and making her hair whip about.

“And you NEVER came back! What came back was some strange spoiled youth that only looked like the pure and innocent boy I knew! He was moody, impulsive, and only cared for himself! He didn’t look at me like that innocent young boy did! He was only interested in his own entertainment!” And with another flash of lightning, she waved her hand and I saw a younger version of myself walk by as Aphrodite tried to keep up amidst her grief and agony that I could now see plain as day.

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'' Hey Neechan, how do I get back? I wanna play my xbox. ''

'' But- but- my love, you have just returned? Perhaps we can have some cakes and tea? Aren’t you hungry? You have grown so much! ''

'' Nah- I’m fine. Nor really that hungry. I just wanna get back online and check my email and play my games. ''

'' But- I have games! Let's play them! I will try my best for you! Don’t you remember our special ‘’guess who’’ game? Please don’t tell me you’ve forgotten? Don’t…..don’t you still love me? ''

'' Yeah, I’m not really into games like that anymore. Look, do you know the way back or not? I wanna get some tacos and nachos. ''

'' But didn’t you just say- Alex, look over there. I won't hold you against your will, so over there, is the way home…..but Alex.….please…..please….stay with me…...I’m begging you...please! ''

'' I’ll be back, don’t worry! Just wanna catch up on a few games. ''

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'' Alex….why….Alex…..why didn’t you say you love me? ''

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The vision faded and my eyes now focused on Aphrodite’s face as her glowing red eyes stared at me, still spilling tears of sparkling purple that mixed with the pouring downpour of rain. With a trembling hand she held up the ring, and flung it aside into the oozing mud. "And you......you......I.....I.... almost lost you to someone who never loved you!"

“.... neechan ...” I whispered, not even beginning to comprehend the pain I must have put upon her....no wait, it must have been exactly...no, worse then the pain the one who betrayed me, out me through.

“ And you dare tell me -I- changed?!?!? NO! It’s YOU! Alex!” She thundered, pointing her finger at me. “YOU are the one who changed! YOU are the one who lost innocence and purity and light and lo- your….lo….. love …. for …. me ...” Her lip trembled, but she kept her wet eyes open and her face was all but fully composed, framed by her wet purple hair.

I felt my knees lose all strength and I would have fallen to the ground, if it weren't for Neechan.

“....I…..I forgotten….Neechan...I’m so sorry….” I whispered. “Why can’t I remember until I come back?”

Aphrodite’s face lost its edge and became full of concern and worry as she settled against the tree and held me to her bosom as I cried. My heart still breaking over the betrayal I endured, the pain I caused the one woman who truly loved me, and the corrupted thing she had become…..because of me.

“ Alex….please….stay with me? Please ?” Neechan begged.

“Neechan….” I sat up and looked at her. “Please, can you be the pure woman I knew? I could be the pure boy you knew. I would do whatever you want! Whatever it takes! I am so full of pain, and I can’t stand it anymore! I don’t want to leave! Please! Help me!”

Aphrodite shook her head. “I am what you need me to be. Not what you want me to be.” She ran her fingers through my hair and kissed my forehead. “Alex, you are now a man…..you need a woman in your life…..and if you want it to be me...I can be that woman, forsake all others and love only me, see only me, and desire only me….and I will be closer to what you want, and what you remember.”

I sniffed and wiped my face and exhaled. “I….I don’t know how. Tell me how, please?”

“Do you love me, Alex?”

I nodded. “Aphrodite….Neechan...I love you, and only you. Please, I know I don't deserve it.....but do you- could you forgive me? I don't deserve a third chance.....but...do you still love me?”

Neechan smiled and nodded and kissed my lips. I closed my eyes and felt a bright light upon my face. But still I leaned into the kiss.

When it at last broke and I took in a deep breath I looked about and noticed the sky was bright and clear….and-

“Neechan?” I said, shocked at my voice that now sounded much  younger, and Neechan seemed to stand quite a bit taller than I did. There was this air of sexual appeal she had, but it was different than the fetish amalgamation she once was before. Her body and clothes and bearing all had this sexual charge, but it was exclusive....like it was only for me, as it always was before.

"Please, Neechan....I love you....do you love me?"

She nodded and kneeled down and kissed me again. “Alex, of course I love you. I will always love you! But please, please stay with me? I love you! I want you to stay with me so I can always be there and love you!”

I felt my eyes well with tears as her long, strong arms wrapped around my body. As she pulled me into her lap and held me like she did so long ago.

“Of course! No one loves me like Neechan!” I sighed, feeling sleep touch upon my eyelids. I peaked up at her and smiled as I felt her rise on her bright sparkling wings and took to the sky.

“Where are we going?” I said, yawning.

“Home, Alex….we are at last, going home.”