My first reaction after finishing the reading is a yelling: "Maaavis!". Mavis is my neighbor, an old wise crow tengu with the experience the years gave her. As she approaches, I ask: "explain me this! Read it and explain it!". I was in tears, my heart aching. She reads it. She then gives me a smile as a grandmother does to her little granddaughter, as if I were stupid as a kid. She makes me sit in a chair, and start explaining: "my dear, there is a difference between love and passion, and there is a difference between happiness and pleasure. You do believe you love him, but it's just a powerful, obsessive passion. The proof is, you barely know him, you just married him because he 'strikes your fancy' and never minded to know him better. Pheromones matching is about passion, not love. Love is about his personality, and love must be cultivated to grow. We crow tengus are the only monsters who don't marry out of passion, but out of true love, trying to know the human better before proposing to him. Putting in a sentence, passion is: 'I want him'. And love is: 'I want him... Happy. I want him to be happy and I want his well being, even if it means being less close to him as I would like to'. Now, about happiness... You do believe you were giving him happiness, but happiness does not come from short-term pleasure. Sex is important, but it's not everything. Come, child. I will make you my apprentice, my pupil. You will learn from me and you will conquer your man's heart back".
And that's how this old crow tengu became my sensei, as I continue to learn to see the world in a different way and become a better lover. Wait for me darling. I'm going to give you love. I'm going to give you true love.